Everything is up to you and to no other person. Every excuse is an excuse and nothing else. The Lord does not care about you (although the Lord exists; make no mistake about that). Your dreams of Divine providence are more Freudian than spiritual, in nature.
Your own ignorance, the crown idolatry…
You may well keep on weltering in the dirt of your nakedness, intermittent in your bloated and sullen repose, shame-filled and self-loathsome…I hope you are happy now, as you roil about porcinely with your wretched kin in your sex and food orgies while I and my kin maintain the steady course across a hundred storming seas in search of glory and God!
so true bestie <3
SvaraRadera