21 nov. 2018

a very very very very angry observation

The modern man is driven to the cliff's edge; no longer is he content with life in spirit for he is an adventurer by heart: when people are shot and killed on the street, he watches in confused content from his window, and when natural disasters hit, he laughs in pace with the whipping of flood-water; when wars break out across the globe, however far off or close, just he gets the whiff of them, there is a silly side to him, a silly person within him who could not be happier; the modern man is so bored by the current world that anything which might potentially throw it out of balance, will be rejoiced and welcomed by principal. But maybe I should stop painting with big brushes, and maybe I should stop referring to myself as the "modern man", because I am not at all typical of him; I speak about myself and I make no crude generalizations, for it is I who want to revel in the bloodied excesses of terrorism and barrel-bombing, not my neighbor nor my colleague at work; for them, everything is good and nice as it is. Always as it is. As long as it is comfortable for them. Swine, I say.

i have no idea what this really means but otters are cool and humans belong in their assholes

There is a little pouch on an otters' body where it can keep its favorite rock. The otter also has an asshole, and therein it keeps its favorite human. 

hail paglia, the empress of the only modern-western incarnation of feminism worthy a single fuck

Only a weak woman would not admit the great potency and the great achievements of men, but by the same token, only a pathetic and puny man would not admit the woman to possess intrinsically a similar potentiality for glory as do men.

"ego death" has just become a hollow meme spread like gonorrhea by pseudo-religious assholes trying to appear pristine in mind and in praxis but they are mostly just shallow losers with no understanding beyond the surface of things

I remain a skeptic to this, the ever-revigorating myth of ego-death as an intrinsical existential ideal, and I conclude the matter hereby saying that ego-life is a thousand times more important for the religious human than any ego-death.

19 nov. 2018

Something new from the Throat of the Zorza

"THE SPEECH ABOUT THE GREAT ENVY OF MAN"
FROM THE BOOK, FIRST DRAFT;
YET TO BE COMPLETED.

"Perhaps the man is envious of the woman! And from this, he is forcing her as a means of psycho-social compensation to struggle like some eunuch of a wisdom unaccessible to her, and, as a means of clouded self-insecurity he will condemn her, with all the earthly domination he can muster forth, to walk on the dead clay of the bottoms of the stratas and to beg along the dirt-roads at the base of our hierarchies, given only what man chewed and spat out, to eat? Could this, but in part, give some explanation or shed some light, but a frail glimpse of lucidity, on the sick masculine tendency, personal as well as collective; historical as well as contemporary, of repressively subordinating the other sex into orders of power built on the strained shoulders of female worth itself, erected with the scaffolding of her disadvantage, made worse and worse and worse by the violent and pathological gender-gender hostility it generates, and perpetuated by the evolutionary intendency of nature, the seeming unhappening, of the permittance of man to develop the same child-bearing abilities as those of the woman. If there is any merit to this theory of psychology, could this possibly be a factor in driving men furthermore, as a means of resentful overcompensation and not only as some mechanism of psycho-biological and hormonal realities, to pursue other objectives in life such as those found in and around, for example, the fields of commerce, architecture, technology, law, economics and politics? Even in ascetic isolation perhaps man may find indirect domination over woman... in fact, the potential of man dominating woman is great in every domain and in every area of human life, it is a cold and stark truth, with the exception being found in the domain of the actual creating of it. Perhaps for the futile and bitter man, this tendency can grow into the bitterest of them all, outshadowing all of their other bitternesses, causing them deep disharmony and confusion, incentivizing in them the humiliation of women over the self-authenticization their souls weep for in the deepest depth of them? There are inarguably fields of human activity from where women, statistically and historically, have scattered, and on the basis of temperament and of psychology, they seem to continually even in our gender-equal, industrialized, socio-economically and materially privileged modernity to avoid these domains, albeit not in as profound numbers as before. The reasons for these human behaviors are obscure, to say the least; be it created out of social-political policy or be it self-developed from innate temperamental difference en masse... different people fancy different explanations to this reality, but real it is (I personally would argue both explanations are correct and indeed not mutually exclusive). Indeed there are fields from which women gravitate outward, and these are indeed fields around which no feminist can boast with huge numbers of participation on behalf of their female kin, and these are fields which can not be described with any female significance next to the significance of the achievements of man, given it is possible to measure achievements in such a clumsy and simplifying manner (...for they are never tantamount only to their total numerical statistics, but rather they should be understood and valued with the measuring rod of passion and of authenticity, and their weight should be weighed in terms of their direct influence and of their indirect influence, in both the material-political as well as in the spiritual-empathetical realm - but that is a completely different discussion).

Who knows the truth? I do not. But I always liked the theory, and I think it can have some serious grounding in the reality of things, and it may put into light some of the tendencies of the social structuring we can observe through-out the lineage of human societes running like a life-vein all along the avenue of history, from the archaic and ruinous cities of Sumer and Egypt to the misogynist-Islamist theocracies of our contemporary world... But, caveat, even if it has some bearing as a science and as a theory, I refute the notion that it would account for the whole of the various incomprehensibly complex and multifaceted explanations to these conundrums... But, if I am allowed playing with the thought for a bit, jolly in a Socratic spirit, I propose that the envy of the womb is an envy man might feel, though not all men feel it (for it is a sign of male patheticness; not all males are pathetic), but those who do, may not do so necessarily consciously... but it can be a psychological mechanism to whom its subject remains unaware. I can say that I believe that the idea of a male envy felt about a woman's sovereignty in the domain of the parturition and sustenance of life itself is a complex and serious idea, and I often think, if bearing any real credence, about if this then would be more of a cultural and psychosocial tendency within the collective and within the larger movements of societies across time, or if it is rather actually more to be considered an innate and inseparable trait of primordial masculine psychology, or both... either way, it seems clear to me that the manifestations of womb-envy straddles over a vast spectrum like a horse-courier of the Mongolians is running his epistles to the ambassadors and the vassals of the hinterland across the largest expanses of wasteland (there are as many explanations to it as there are rocks and stones on the steppe): it may show itself with a thousand different manifestations; from the unconscious and indirect but ultimately harmless frustrations of a young boy, to the unconscious and indirect but ultimately devastating resentments of powerful men in group; from the clearly lucid and conscious and direct but ultimately disregardable and unnoticable provocations of the unloved teenage boy, to the malevolently conscious and direct machinations of men's social structuring around the idea of the feminine as somehow - partially or totally - valuably lesser, something which - disastrously, I would add - culminates often but not always in socio-political and philosophical structures endorsing sheer feminine inferiority, ranging from notions of seemingly empathetic pity towards women, the second class, to more despicable and debased notions of sheer and resentful misogyny...


I ask myself: what, really, is the need for female belittlement, if not a viscious attack on the void of femininity within man himself? And where, for example, is the moral justice in incredulous accusations of witchraft en masse? Men have always produced, promulgated and defended both philosophy and morality - then, where is its justification, where lies its impediment to divine and unquestionable justice? Is every unjust disregard for the female achievements contra those of the male borne out of a fear of out-competition? Sometimes it strikes me, as if a bolt of lightning from the grey and shaking sky, although I am aware of the academic unrootedness of these theories, that the womb-envy might be a powerful and elementary factor in the psychological and, necessarily, egoical insecurities of the basic man: a man's insecurity before (what may honestly be perceived of as) the miraculous biological and reproductive capabilities of the female body may impel the man to seek definitions of identity which are in blatant opposition to womanhood in itself, and cause him, because of this blinding phosphene in his spiritual eye, to pursue ideals not in authenticity with his own heart and spirit, but in spite of everything "unmanly", and in doing so, creating the most destructive and severe of all masculine pathologies. Hence, men who are distraught over, and even suffer within, this psychological deformation may start to delineate a blind and often radical dichotomization between the masculine and the feminine, original to, and exacerbated by, the insistance that what constitutes the "real man" must be, by clear and pristine definition, "not-a-woman". In accord with this miscarriage of spirituality and in service of this psycho-pathology which might steer whole societes and whole histories to their irrevocable collapses and dooms, they seek to socially and/or physically dominate women as a pathetic compensation for what men can not achieve biologically - which is, the fecundation of the very seed of life itself. Simply put, this psycho-social tendency produces and agitates misogyny in neurotic men, and it may give, and have given a thousand or a million times before, rise to political systems which suppress the woman as subject and the feminine as archetype to the extreme of hardly even considering them anymore the harbourers of any noticeable intrinsical human value at all. Is the patriarchy, in marginal or in greater part, founded on man's resentful desire for the woman's advantage of the power of parturition - a power which, in most spiritual and mythological systems, well outshine the advantages of the man, struck with the inferiority complex neither he nor his sister, spouse, daughter nor mother can understand, down on the ground, appearing rich and jubilant in bounty with all the earthly delights any king could dream of, and with the captured slave-girls entertaining him carnally, kissing his feet in submission and in esoteric coercion... but what is the sum of all worldly opulence in comparison to the absolute and self-aggrandizing power of harnessing life - as it is, in itself - the very quantum of material existence on earth?"