Excerpt from Dialogue with the Two Sisters (April 2021); work in progress

"If enlightenment meant tulips and sunshine, then everyone would be enlightened, but everyone is not. If hard work was easy, it wouldn't be called hard. If the human spirit was weak, we wouldn't conceptualize strength as an ideal universal. If the meaning of existence means "follow your bliss", I do not want to be here anymore. Bliss is a dead end. Meaning is the pathway forward. Meaning, power, beauty and the Glory of God. Go to hell with your hedonism and your "bliss" and your "it makes me happy" hippie bullshit. Crawl through the gutter; there is knowledge in dirt and grime, too. The accomplished human is happy, yes, but only as a secondary effect of being accomplished. Happiness can not come before accomplishment. Bliss is a dead end. I promise that. And if you don't believe me - try it. Pursue "happiness" for 10 years and see where you find yourself. If enlightenment meant bliss and pleasure, everyone would be enlightened. Because it would be so easy. Why are not everyone happy, then? Where is that fucking utopia? Why is there atrocity, resentment, murder, rape, madness, angst and the harrowing, millenial accumulation of evil sin and malignancy in this world? Because bliss and pleasure will not set your free - it will entrap. I say again: if hard work was easy, it wouldn't be called hard. The search for meaning goes through many dimlit caverns, believe that. And there is religious truth in the very shadow you try to banish and evict from your heart futily! God is surely a terror for the feeble-minded. That is why they pretend God does not exist. Easier that way, perhaps. However, it is an existential and spiritual falsity, a human error, a self-imposed indemnity, this ever-search for carnal and sensual satisfaction and of material acquisition. And to that I can only leer mockingly. I have no respect for it, because God commands it not, never."