Kierkegaard was right ― the essence of God is the unprovability of God! That is the fucking point... in the jungle of theology all is a night of danger, of misconception, of panic and of doubting confusion! I am so sick and tired of people propagating their fucking “love and solace” hippie “Gods”… Because our God is brandishing the scepters of both Love and of Terror!

“What a boundless eternity of voids! We shall continue with this for but a moment, dear child, I have much to tell you still: God is ugliness, and at the same God is the beauty around that ugliness, and from it as if nurtured, it blooms. The decrepitude of spirit and the alienation of the soul, what was called the dark night of the soul by St. John of the Cross, is symptomatic to the problematic origin of the human, for God withdrew in order to create her: he had to. I spoke about this earlier too, and I consider St. Simone Weil to be my teacher on these matters. She spoke to me about this in person, and with great enthusiastic detail ― I met her once in her native France. From that meeting, her theology of the origin of the human soul stuck to me like honey or like sugar, and I hold it in belief these days”.

Evil is elemental but it manages nonetheless a reach into the most material of things. And only by accepting the physical presence of this evil have we come to accept it morally; as a moral reality.

Evil is a weed in a garden of hibiscus,  a thick obnoxious root, a fungus on something otherwise living; nevertheless, it is as real as the very clinging like vine on our rigidity and on our moral order.

the landscape has become barren of life, and intransigent in its inhospitability, it is untrodden.