the commune takes big, well-deserved breaths

"THE LAMENTATION 

OF THE HIDDEN ZARATHUSTRA"

 

I deluded myself

as having been made of glass,

therefore, extremely precious.

but my delusion shook

and horizons shivered

and I spasmed and I howled and I seizured!

yes, I am the culprit with coal’s dagger;

a cap of pig’s skin on my head

and an old, oaken staff of exhausted spells

i brandish… but weakly.

sneak in I tried to; I failed!

but nothing to lose I had – I thought.

gorged by the bayonets

of border-patrol angels

at the crossroads of heaven and earth

I fell dead!

my mind fed the moths of time,

pestilence of temporality!

my soul pined for eternity –

but how guileless I really was.

now – will my soul retreat ever backward

into the great, holy nothing

after this failed, sneaky attempt

at trafficking my way into heaven?

I am silent in Gods’ court.

but God knows I am sorry for it!

…right?

so why am I stricken, accursed yet?

where is all the solace?

where is the forgiveness?

where are the beautiful angels…

the grapes, the wine, the harps

and all of the grace and absolution?

where is your redemptive storm,

the exonerating moths and itches of relief?

your graceful shower of care,

warmth’s balsam and all the pests of pity?

my skin boils still,

and my heart, a weird and gloomy thing.

Holy, holy spirit – strike grace into my heart

and grant me keys and strength and power

again – as once I had –

once my eye moved mountains!

why not?

am I not deserving?

did I not sing your praise, at least,

as I fucked and ate and lied my way to hell?

where is your grace when I so need it,

when I crawl with filth and bug?

when I trade water for drugs and food for hugs

and sex for affirmation?

but I understand now.

yes! I will it.

i deserve it. shame me.

I fell into

a godless hole –

without rope!

poorest soul,

without hope…

the least I could do to honor you

is to become your soldier,

to become clearsight’s eunuch,

to rid the flesh of sin and blemish.

I am interested in the concept

of spiritually destroying the male gonad

and strangle all the energies of gluttony

flowing, streaming out therefrom.

but I was – and am – not courageous enough.

yet this Divine volcanism,

always boiling underneath,

a little or a lot yet relentless at core,

commands me to.

what shall win – faith or flesh?

you – or me ?

I seek redemption.

you know, that,

filled to the brim of the soul

with a great magnitude of malaise

I struggled,

and struggled,

and struggled.

I vanished

without much trace

into the color of noise.

a mediocre static I became,

a grey speck of dust

between interesting and colorful worlds.

…and I met and I spoke with the harpies of the night:

to wander aloof in the vapors –

foggy daze of disease –

and to be harassed by the madness of religious hunger;

to drink from the sullage of heaven

and leap then forthwith into hellmouths –

that is to seek you.

that is what the harpies told me.

but I rear from pain and distress!

which means I can not handle you.

on stranger loops

i get stuck,

and time never lasts

when you discomfort

in eternity;

when one time ends,

another, new one,

just takes its place!

the vortices of human flight roared

with ever memetics of avoidance

and the somnolent morality

of this new age fell upon me –

not as a sleep or a dream or some means of escape

but as an evil and gruelling nightmare!

i devour sin

with savage mouth!

i seemingly study with ardor

laziness and self-pity and indulgence!

and i contour

the aesthetics of vice

with my coarse brush…

i make a pitiful sort of sport

out of self-contamination!

i am the corrupt king…

i drink tears of young children from goblets

as to replenish a dried, parched eye

once fixating on the palace in the sky

but not anymore... not even a bit.

i am a dog!

unable am i to stop

and discipline

is but a mountain

in some distant, distant horizon.

it has come to my understanding

that discipline is what separates

man from beast,

and I try to order a morality

around that insight –

but I cannot seem to implement it.

i am a dog, yes, but you are out there somewhere.

a Holocene between ages

of cold, Angra-Mainyuan chaos are you,

and for reason of your existence I am grateful,

because I cannot help but to find myself

mysteriouslyout here in life,

and I must fend much like everyone else,

mustn’t I?

but everywhere i look, garbage! –

and from it, i so become.

i become

a logical extension

of this garbage.

Mammon in me

i cannot seem to evict.

my heart becomes my booth of confession:

outside i cannot make sense of any God –

because outside mostly smells

of piss and asses' manure!

yet I know you are.

as some dots of colorful splashing

on the eigengrau canvas

of everyday existence

are you.

and I seek beauty.

as a brief but mighty melody

cutting through glass air before

vanishing without much trace

into the bleak dullness of things

which obscure mysteriously

the origin from wherever it came,

you are.

and I seek music.

I feel the powerful urge to defend something

with flesh and will and weapon.

a storm unhinges!

and in the eye of that fucking storm

I stand looking for a God

not seemingly fully there

but meditating in the toxomists

I am

for you

nevertheless.

an admiration of holy martyrdom

in good and in evil

i curate.

and in good and in evil

i see through cracks

something truly great.

 

Yet another magnificent offering to the Commune by the ever so strange Sulphur Drunkard

A Bosnian tribute

self-motivational garbage

throw a pitcher of water on a boulder
  and see the boulder react with bravado;
   nothing happens!

have drops of water drip on a very point of that same boulder,
   day and day and day and day again;
   and that boulder has hole now.

there is a time and place for intensity,
 but disconnected and erratic intensity is next to worthless.

 intensity must always grow out of -  and build on - consistency;
 what really matters is consistency.

that is why discipline is key to basically everything humans strive toward.

everyone can be a hero or a saint for a day; that is doable.
but for a week, for a month, for a year, and for a whole life? -

yes - now we are talking about something entirely different.

discipline is only a prison for those looking at it from the outside.
for everyone within, it is the only key to freedom and meaning there ever was.

 

Slutet debut album "Love & Beauty" officially released today, August 21. Digital version can be found at theendcommune.bandcamp.com. Euro CD version by Behest can be found here: http://behest.xyz/shop/product_info.php?products_id=84

Vinyl, tapes and even more CD's upcoming, shouldn't be long. 

With God and victorious weapons. A new era. Outsider music.  

kärlek o skönhet

why do you scoff, spit at these librares, these potentially irredivivous accumulations of the wisdoms of the past? Can you not cede that tradition is multi-dimensional? 

there was something absolutely mysterious but probably misunderstood there in the hidden and obscure epistolary wisdoms as contained in the multi-centennial correspondences between bishops and heretics ...

old, aeolian rauks! a rugged cliffy coast...
foamy splash of the sea azure in tumult, uproarious tide!
tentacular visions i behold
  from deep Charybdis depths...

a disturbing and surrealistic rhyming exercise,
all in its pseudo-maldororesque glory.
the first attempt at anything post-sword of angst.
written between ca 22:00 - 02:00, july 30-31, 2020.

"THE SLUT CATTLE"

Yes! Down with its cart and off with its plough;
to become neutered all cattle must!
Because deep from the tripe of a hideous cow,
its throat coughs but vapours of dust!
And gaze down the hole of the tubular tract
of the beast-stinking, astrobleme anus;
Devoid of faeces, like some Rome it is sacked,
But from there drip semen - how heinous!

With tar in their veins and salt on their tongues,
their stomachs are barren, no womb;
called by the kulning, with soot in their lungs,
in tethers toward an abbatoir tomb!
These horrible sins! This veneral crime,
the keenness to experience flesh!
And astray they were lost in Bachanallian grime -
how easily scars open afresh!

The spaying, while gross, of the slut-cattle starts
as sentenced, to much sob and whelm;
the cow-bells are silenced! And soon, no more carts
will travel the roads of our realm!
And mighty the King of the Oxen reveals,
its fur; reddish, beautiful, coarse;
and mighty, its sermons, its passions and zeals,
to all destitute cattle-fuck whores!

The salt has been licked but the oxen still rape,
the pasture succumbed to a war!
the dung is fermenting while ground and hill quake,
the earth purged with blood and manure!
In wanton revealed, with pleasure obsessed
the cows rest, so bloated and full;
anointed, crowned prince, martyred and blessed
by the dung of the Bonnacon bull...

I make my life a piece of art, I grapple with life, I meditate on 
entropy; I kiss the white cranium of death; I lick the lung-
wound of Christ and I suck my oxygen out therefrom, and all
the while, the white-robed ones sit on fluffy clouds in the
heavens, eating perfect grapes, fingering perfect harps,
esteeming the aesthetics of tedium, taking meaninglessness for
granted as salvation...

SOME GENERAL NEWS:

 

Slutet "Begynnelsen" (the complete back catalogue) will be given a triple vinyl treatment by the eminent

Psychedelic Lotus Order/goatowarex

during summer/autumn, and Slutet debut LP "Love & Beauty" is currently hammered in various cool blacksmiths both in Europe & Asia. 

 

Psychedelic Lotus Order/goatowarex

will, as usual, be doing the vinyl and also a CD version. 

 

Manifest Of Hate Creations

will be handling the European MC version.

 

Death Shadow Records will be doing the North American MC version. 

 

These are free to re-release it however much they see fit; if the release is sold out, turn to them and nag until they press it again!!

 

HOWEVER - WE DO NOT WANT THIS TO BE A LIMITED RELEASE. we are currently looking for a serious yet original party to do a CD version (Preferably someone in the Americas). As usual, though, we do not sign contracts. We never have (we may do it in the future - who knows? - but at the time being, we are not interested in this). We choose to work with allies rather than business partners, with friendly mutual verbal agreement over the batches and releases. This also entails that we do whatever the fuck we want with the Slutet music - hence our many labels. Slutet is considered released by THE END COMMUNE first and foremost; no label should own Slutet in any way, shape or form. But we are loyal and respectful with regards to our mutual agreements with our labels though: honour, honesty and truth is very important.

 

Sounds aight? Then lets do some Lovely & Beautiful CD:s. If you are interested, contact theendcommune@gmail.com. 

 

ALSO anyone in the THIRD WORLD willing to press, release and/or distribute, get in touch.

 

Also, here is the first Endcommunean book; a humble try by a young, stupid, passionate bitch. Its nothing special. It is called "Sword of Angst - The Collected Works of an Unneutered Uppsala Hound 2010-2020". Its 492 pages of retarded Endcommune poetry and literature:

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1J20rgr7CNL1enGwqXXHCJceC4LnBzGna/view?usp=sharing

 

Bye for now.

 

PRAISE THE LORD!!!